I’m a genius. No the hell I’m not. Fuck you. There aren’t any geniuses. But I am damn good at Rust. I am not damn good at my job. Everyone else just doesn’t know how to use Rust. Get good at Rust. I look at our codebase and I weep!
I can do work that takes others a whole week, in one day. I can do work that takes others one day, in one hour. The price is ADHD burnout. It’s a special kind of burnout that makes you feel like shit mentally and physically. That’s not great for accumulating billable time. It’s great for impressing people at a party. Damn! the women; they love my command-line-interface skills. No the fuck they don’t.
Are you familiar with Byung-Chul Han? He’s a pop philosopher with some nice tidbits when it comes to his naturalistic observations on capitalistic society. I thought he was disrespecting psychology and medicine when he posited that ADHD could have social etiology, but there’s something that rings true when one’s inability to produce is attributed to pathology, a responsibility made individual, and a matter of individual character – indeed, the sum of a human’s output; that is, I emphasize, the quality of a human! Can’t we say that the attention economy exacerbates a lack of ability to focus? Can’t we argue that the quantity of one’s productivity isn’t a matter of pathology, and that pathology is made, through measurement of productivity, a matter of shame?
Are you familiar with the term, “maladaptive”? We might know what burnout is, and how it affects us, but we can’t help it.